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| oh yeah |
| 02.08.04 (1:08 pm) [edit] |
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oh....and i forgot to add to my misery. X's not even on my lunch anymore neither is anyone at my old table. It seriously sucks. I hate lunch now - I sit with a completely different group and its just not the same. I'm so depressed. :(
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| ahhh! |
| 02.08.04 (1:06 pm) [edit] |
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okay, I seriously think I like X but one of my friends decided that she too likes him even though I told her that I liked him. But the sad part is is that I'm pretty sure he likes her too. :( They get along great and have everything in common. I don't get it. Why doesn't any guy ever like me?? X is great and it sucks that my friend thinks she has a better shot with him - which I think she's right. I dunno - err this sucks. And with Valentine's Day coming soon it just makes me even ore depressed.
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| blah |
| 01.23.04 (12:16 pm) [edit] |
Went to Timmy's for lunch. It was good. I haven't been in so long cause I can't walk there anymore. I feel so secluded now from everything and everyone....its so plain and empty where we are now.
[u]Headstrong - Trapt[/u]
Circling your, circling your, circling your head
Contemplating everything you ever said
Now I see the truth
I got a doubt
A different motive in your eyes and now I’m out
See you later
I see your fantasy, you want to make it a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads, yeah
Well now that’s over
I see your motives inside, decisions to hide
Back off we’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong we’re Headstrong
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
And this is not where you belong
I can’t give everything away
I won’t give everything away
Conclusions manifest
Your first impressions got to be your very best
I see you’re full of shit and that’s alright
That’s how you play I guess you get through every night
Well now that’s over
I see your fantasy, you want to make it a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads, yeah
Well now that’s over I see your motives inside, decisions to hide
Back off we’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong we’re Headstrong
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
And this is not where you belong
Where you belong
I can’t give everything away
This is not where you belong
I won’t give everything away
I know, I know all about
I know, I know all about
I know, I know all about
I know, I know all about your motives inside and your decision to hide
Back off we'll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong we’re Headstrong
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
And this is not where you belong
Where you belong
This is not where you belong
I can’t give everything away
This is not where you belong
I won’t give everything away
This is not where you belong
i love that song
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| one exam down |
| 01.21.04 (12:48 pm) [edit] |
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okay i finished my english exam - it was actually a lot easier than i expected. Lunch was quite sad though - I dont have M or A on it! But I am soooooooooo glad I've got X!!! ...i'm starting to question whether he likes me or not. i sorta think he does but i dunno maybe i'm just wanting him to. he screamed out to me on the way home but maybe he was just saying it as a friend :?:
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| exam today |
| 01.21.04 (4:21 am) [edit] |
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okay so it's first thing in the morning but I thought that I would blog before my first exam. I'm scared lol. I hope I do well. I'm scared that I didn't study enough, but you really can't study that much for english....well I better finish getting ready for school before I'm late. :shock:
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| busy busy busy |
| 01.20.04 (6:56 pm) [edit] |
I've been so busy with school lately that i havent found time to write. ive had isu's for the past month and now ive been studying for exams. And this is my easy semester - I've only got 2 exams and yet I'm still swamped. I'm gonna die next semester. I've got math, science, history, and media arts.
Well since second semester starts next wednesday that means that I have a different lunch which totally sucks. I'm not even with my closest friend. Our lunch is awesome. Ya we sit with a bunch of grade 11 guy's that definitely aren't the coolest in the school but their great. The all have an awesome sense of humour. M and I are the only girls there and now we're gonna be split up - we've got different lunches. She's happy though cause she's got A with her. A's funny. His really nice and has that sarcastic, dry sense of humour that I love and he's pretty good looking. But I've got X on my lunch so I'm okay. X's great. I guess he's like the leader of their group. It's X's table we sit at and stuff and he's the most outgoing. lol He can be really funny. If I had the choice to date any of them it would be him....then A...then probably none lol. I'm still not sure that I actually like him or just want to like him - I dunno if he even likes me. But ya, I was just praying to God that I had him on my lunch and thank you God, i do. I really want a boyfriend!!! And I really don't think I'd mind if it was X.
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| christmas |
| 12.30.03 (11:16 am) [edit] |
christmas was great. got some great gifts. i got these awesome leather boots from bata and a leather purse to match. they're probably my favourite. .i got mostly clothes this year which is fine by me. overall a better year than last one. :wink:
boxing day was awsome though!!! i love it. best shopping day of the year. Last year i got a $100 swaude skirt for $6!! now i couldnt beat that this year but i came pretty close - I got an $85 outift for just $11.50 at sirens!! i was so proud. that night we had both sides of the family over, that was fun. and im seriously not being sarcastic lol - it really was pretty good.
err. ive gotta go back to school on the 5th though. for some reason im dreading it...i just feel like something bads gonna happen when i get back. i dunno. im just paranoid. no but seriously i know why. isu due dates are coming up, 2 of which i haven't even got yet so im gonna be rushing cause i know i wont be given a lot of time to do them and then as soon as the stress of finishing 4 projects wear off its exam time - which im also not looking forward too. they freak me right out. i get so worried. so ya - not excited to go back. :(
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| Merry Hoho! |
| 12.22.03 (6:43 pm) [edit] |
yayness!! its almost christmas!! i have no idea what im getting but i know its not going to be alot. My parents dont have that much money this year - but thats ok because every other year we always got lots. Well not as much as some of my other friends who are completely spoiled when it comes to christmas...its quite sick....but oh well. I don't expect alot for christmas, I really don't. I enjoy just being with extended family and just having a good time.
Last year was the worst christmas ever though. My parents were fighting, alot. They completely ruined it for us and they knew it. I couldnt believe how they were acting - like they have at least tried to make things better for two days. Well on the actual christmas day, they tried but I was already so upset and out of christmas spirit from the day before that nothing meant anything to me.....new years wasnt much better - actaully it was horrible as well. we even had family over but my mom and uncle got into a huge huge massive fight...and my dad sorta took my uncles side - we all knew my mom was right.....:cry: it hurts just thinking about it....they promised me that it will be better this year though. They said that they'd prove it somehow.....we're having people over on boxing day - I'm really nervous. Both sides of my family are coming over and I'm so scared to have anyone over now - what if the same thing happens?? i just really hope this year ends better than it started. :?
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| also |
| 12.21.03 (8:48 pm) [edit] |
oh ya i forgot to add that he's a year older.
wow. why did i write that??? maybe i seriously do like him?? ahh! i dunno :shock:
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| confused |
| 12.21.03 (8:45 pm) [edit] |
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ok, so there may be a new guy i like..and no his name doenst start with R lol...lets just call him X. So ive only known him for a few weeks but unlike the other guys i like i could actually have a cahnce with him cause i actually talk to him. We sit together at lunch with a few of my other friends. so ya hes super nice and its only been like for 3 days that i think that i like him. now i really dont know if i like him or im just desperate to get a boyfriend. ive never had one and want one really bad so could this just be my subconcious going "hey...u could actually have a chance with this guy and hes probably the best you can do. take him" or do i really like him? im so confused. i mean i dont no that much about him. I know hes smart, really funny, sorta cute - he seems to be getting cuter each time i see him...so i dunno, i hope im not just settling...if anyone knows or has any advice please let me know cause im really messed up right now. :(
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| recap |
| 12.19.03 (1:25 pm) [edit] |
well the showcase was a success. We all did really well and everyone enjoyed it. I wasnt even really that nervous!
last night i went to my brothers xmas concert at his school..i was mad because he was making me miss degrassi!!:x well it was really boring till RS showed up...i didnt recognize him at first becusae it was dark but he sat with his family a few seats ahead of us....i guess he was siblings that go to that school.....so i spent the whole time starting at the back of his head....he has awesome hair.....lol but i didnt get to let him see me after it was over cause we had to leave after my brother performed...when it was still dark and he wasnt paying attention :(.....i wont see him until after the holidays now cause he wasnt at school today....oh well..it made the concert a bit more enjoyable :wink:
in other news....today was my last day before the christmas break...it was soooo fun....there was like 6 kids in each of my classes, noone decided to show up so each period we just played.
i brought in scatergories so we played that in english. it was soooo much fun. my teacher and the teacher in the next room played as well. lol just really fun...some of the words we came up with...also in that class we won the door decorating contest so we got 65 timbits!!! for 7 people!! lol
in careers we watched the movie i brought in...christmas vacation...that was fun....3rd peroid we watched save the last dance....lunch was hilarioius....there was like 20 ppl in the caf and the usual crowd i sit with played cards like every other day....except more fun...and then in religion we went to the library and played on the computers.
yup...thats about it.....
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| ahhh! |
| 12.12.03 (7:32 pm) [edit] |
we've got our winter showcase on monday (and tuesday). I'm scared!! What if i mess up?? I will look like a total idiot. Escepially since our teacher is marking us on our performance :shock: . But i have to say that im enjoying dance much better now than i was at the beginning of the year. i think i'll be ok...i mean we've only been practising for like 2 months now....ahh! but what if like just all of a sudden i forget it?? that happens you know.
well we've sorta got one more rehearsal thing...we're performing for some grade schools on monday morning for extra practice....so if that goes well i shouldn't really be worried for monday night......
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| long day ahead |
| 12.10.03 (1:47 pm) [edit] |
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tomorrow ive got a dress rehearsal for our winter showcase...it lasts from after school (2:00) until 9:30!!! I really don't want to...I'm only in 2 out of like 30 numbers so most of time i'll just be sitting around. oh well, its true we need the practice though since the shows on Monday and Tuesday!!! :shock:
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| The 4 R's |
| 12.08.03 (2:13 pm) [edit] |
ok...i dont know what it is about me but i sorta have a thing for guys that have a name starting with [u]R[/u]. lol its all a coincidence though...it's not like i meet someone named roy or something and then be like "OMG his name starts with [u]R[/u]..i like him!" its all seriously a coincidence. every guy that i currently like starts with the letter [u]R[/u]!! Two of them being Ryans. :lol:
Another phanominon ive noticed with adorable guys i like is that they are usually taurus's. i guess i just like the qualities that taurus's have....but i can't even count how many guys i have fallen for that i knew were tauruss. i can think of 5 off the top of my head right now...not including the two Ryans who are both-again coincidently-taurus's. weird eh? :shock:
*heart* R~R~R~R *heart*
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| xmas party |
| 12.07.03 (2:50 pm) [edit] |
i went to my moms work today for the kids christmas party. im too old to actually get a gift and such but i volunteered to help out with the face paint. not many kids wanted it though...most of them were toddlers.
the best was the mascot. mom works for the blue jays so Ace was there. the guy who plays him, Brenden had to be santa as well cause he didnt show up. but it was hilarious to watch him....he's so used to not being able to talk that when he was santa he was barely saying anything and kept using his hands :lol:....lol for the people that knew it was soooo obvious that hes a mascot. we found it quite amusing to watch him signal for the presents and kids and stuff instead of talking....
yup....school tomorrow...gotta finish homework
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| starting |
| 12.06.03 (8:55 pm) [edit] |
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new to everything....still checking this out
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